Card — Six of Pentacles
Color — Gray
Incense — Ylang-ylang
This weekend, I took the advice from last week’s cards and focused inward. I made some very delicious homemade meals for the family, including a batch of homemade fish and chips (since the Husband is British and requested it.) I also learned that two Tilapia filets per person is WAY TOO MUCH. I’m still fussing with my new bread machine recipe since, apparently, my old recipe only really worked in my old bread machine. I made homemade chicken and vegetable soup that lasted for two days and which we ate with a massive loaf of bread that I was certain was going to overflow the bread pan. I crocheted, felt guilty about not writing, but reminded myself that healing and growth take rest as well as work.
Today’s card indicates, to me at least, that I am on the right track. The Six of Pentacles is a card of abundance and generosity; appreciate what you have, and share the wealth. Wealth can, of course, come in many forms. We can share information, we can share support in different forms, it doesn’t have to be monetary or physical. But, the important part is that connection. And that is part of what I am trying to do here. I am also trying to figure out what has changed in publishing through Amazon, and I’ll have to do the same with the other online publishing portals.
The goal, of course, is to stop spiraling and get my ass in gear. I want to get back into writing, I want to do what I can to help support my family, and I need to figure out what that means and what it looks like. The Husband and I have discussed, briefly, getting back into streaming, but I think the death of my dad, his mom’s illness, and her subsequent death have still rocked us back on our heels a bit. As an introvert, I found that while I enjoy streaming, and I love connecting with the people I found, it is still extremely exhausting.
There are so many wonderful streamers and people I absolutely consider friends, but there are also so many behind the scenes aspects to it, like video editing and networking, that I find myself working on an energy deficit many times. And when you add in that I am a late GenX/early Millennial person, I’m well out of the range of typical streamer and there’s really no angle to make that any easier or draw people in. I’m a nerd, and an older one at that. I won’t shy away from the fact that I cannot do the streaming on my own, without my partner in crime. That tends to be how we handle most things anyhow.
In fact, in two months, the Husband and I will celebrate our 18th wedding anniversary. A month later, we’ll celebrate 19 years together overall. We’re creeping up on the two decade mark, and not long after that, relatively speaking, I will have spent more time with him in my life than without him. It’s hard to believe that we’ve been together this long, and at the same time, it’s hard to imagine it any differently. I’m going to have to sit back and think about how we accomplished it.
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